Heaven-Sent: My Unexplained Pregnancy Journey

It’s incredible how life unfolds, often in unexpected and unexplainable ways. For three long years, I found myself on a rollercoaster to achieve such a pregnancy journey. The road to conceiving felt like a never-ending struggle filled with hormone tests, ovulation test strips, and herbal remedies, all in pursuit of the elusive miracle I so desperately desired.

With each month that came and went, my hopes and dreams felt increasingly distant. I couldn’t understand why this process was so grueling for me. I took my hormone test with the hope that they would give me some answers, yet the results were often a mix of “everything looks normal.”

As much as I delved into the science of ovulation, analyzing every dip and rise, it felt like my body was dancing to a rhythm I couldn’t comprehend. I even turned to herbal medicine, convinced that nature held the key to the miracle I sought.

The herbal root I used to help with conception was initially tucked away in my closet, out of sight and out of mind. But one day, I decided to move it into my cupboard, where I would see it every time I reached for spices. To me, placing it there in the open was like sending a message to the universe, asking for a little help in making our dream of becoming parents come true.

Around this time, life threw another curveball my way. I had to say goodbye to my beloved dog. Losing her felt like losing a part of my heart. The grief wrapped around me like a heavy fog, and I spiraled into a period of depression.

I sought comfort in the tiniest moments of joy, but nothing compared to the love of my furry companion. She was supposed to see our family grow and be a part of my baby's life. My world felt dimmer without her.

One night, enveloped in sadness, I had the most vivid dream. In it, my dog had brought me babies. No, not puppies. Actual human babies.

These are the messages of the dreams I had and shared with my siblings.

Joy washed over me, and I could feel the warmth of hope rekindling in my chest. Perhaps this was her way of reassuring me that my desire for motherhood was not just a dream; it was possible. I hate to admit it, but after having those dreams, I believe my dog was meant to leave so she could find my babies for me.

The dream reminded me of one my younger sister had about a month earlier, which was oddly similar. How coincidental that she dreamt of me being pregnant with 2 other sisters because that was exactly what happened. It just wasn't the same people in the dream, but my younger sister and my sister in law, we were all pregnant and gave birth months to a week apart. (I'm Nina in the messages - a family nickname).

Fast forward to half a year later... It was a typical day when my sister sent me a message out of the blue. She told me she had dreamt I was pregnant. The message was simple yet potent:

Finally, after three long years filled with heartache and longing, I was pregnant! The unimaginable journey of anguish, dreams, love, and loss culminated in this moment—a miracle in the making.

I couldn't contain my excitement and immediately messaged my husband, who was just as shocked. When he got home, he told me that he had a dream that very morning about having a son and watching him grow up so quickly. He's not one to believe those kind of dreams or superstition.

Strangely enough, I also had a dream or maybe a sleep paralysis episode where I couldn’t move, and I saw a black figure standing beside my husband. Normally, I’d be terrified at the sight of a shadowy figure, but this time, I wasn’t afraid. Somehow, I felt it was our son. The figure then lay down next to my husband, and that’s when I woke up.

How eerie and coincidental is that? What and how is it that everything came about that way?

Reflecting on my journey, it’s become clear that while the path to motherhood was fraught with emotional ups and downs, it ultimately brought me closer to my dream.

My story, though unique, resonates with many women who fight the silent battles of infertility and loss. If you find yourself on a similar path, remember that hope can emerge from unexpected places, from dreams, and sometimes, even from our beloved furry companions.

Last surprising shock: I didn't know I was diagnosed with Female Infertility until I had to recheck my medical records recently to share my story of how traumatic my childbirth was.

I suppose our baby TRULY IS MY MIRACLE CHILD. The universe works in such a mysterious way!